Expectations will trip you up every time!  By now, you might think I would know better. I set myself up by allowing my mind to imagine and plan – Want to make God laugh?  Make a plan.  It’s true.  In my life things are easier, happier, much more agreeable when I allow nature to just take its course. When I meddle or plan too much things seem to disappoint.

Is it possible then to not expect? Keeping an open mind and finding good in whatever arises is something I am trying hard to learn.  Making plans is often necessary but the expectation aspect is where it gets sticky.  Take this blog for instance.  I imagined back when I started it that I would have at least one or two people exchanging ideas with me by now but it just hasn’t happened.  I wanted this to be a place for dialogue and thoughtful discourse but it’s just a place I come now to speak my mind and add a nice image to illustrate it.  It is not what I expected, but it’s okay.

I am trying hard to carry out my efforts to continue to grow and think.  Lately I have struggled with disappointment.  I expected more by now.  But really, when I consider for a moment,  I am happy to be still trying at all!  Expectations, dreams, and desires are mind cotton candy; They are fluffy concoctions that promise delight but never really satisfy.  

I wonder if I can set courses and make plans and find something worthwhile and positive no matter what the outcome in the things I choose to do?  I am going to try.